I'm caught up in the everyday trend Tied up by invisible thread Walking down a razor-thin edge And I wake up tired, think I'm better off dead Been a few months since I crossed over state lines Talk to my mom, fake smiles over FaceTime Drink all night till I can't walk a straight line Feel so low, but I'm high at the same time I can't keep my feet on the ground And I'm nervous what you'll think of me now I'm hoping that someone comes around And helps me figure it out I think that I should try to kill my ego 'Cause if I don't, my ego might kill me I'm all grown up but somehow lately I'm acting like a f**king baby I'm really not as happy as I seem Still a little kid that can't make friends Wanna be invited, but I won't attend I been having bad dreams, my career could end 'Cause I slip up when I should've played pretend Turned eighteen, and I left the city I said: "I wanna be cool, I don't wanna be pretty" The voices all came crashing down And said: "You're too nice to run this town" I can't keep my feet on the ground And I'm nervous what you'll think of me now I'm hoping that someone comes around And helps me figure it out I think that I should try to kill my ego 'Cause if I don't my ego might kill me I'm all grown up but somehow lately I'm acting like a f**king baby I'm really not as happy as I seem Nothing's as it seems Yeah, nothing's as it seems And I'm all grown up but somehow lately I'm acting like a f**king baby I'm really not that happy being me I don't like the lie I'm living I'm way too nice and too forgiving I wanna go back to the beginning When it all felt right A rooftop, Lower East Side, I'm singing Didn't give a fuck if I was winning It's all done now, so who am I kidding? I'm doing way worse than I'm admitting I think that I should try to kill my ego 'Cause if I don't my ego might kill me I'm all grown up but somehow lately I'm acting like a f**king baby I'm really not as happy as I seem Nothing's as it seems Yeah, nothing's as it seems And I'm all grown up but somehow lately I'm acting like a f**king baby I'm really not that happy being me