and it is only in my dreams that I permit myself to be insane and I scream for no apparent reason and my urge to crumble the lives of others elevates as my... my veins, they become a map and words no longer make sense for it is only actions that affect the extent of temporary disease in my dreams my veins become a map that guide me through insanity... trapped inside my own body, but my actions reflect the work of a madman my hands shake uncontrollaby, palms soaked in sweat come as result of my nightmares, and my dreams (in my dreams...) is it ok to kill? it's only in my dreams my urge to crumble drives me insane