She wanted to be a nun Until that fateful day we met I beat the crucifix In a game of russian roulette I burned my beatles records Because she hated number nine She licked rock cocaine suckers Laughed, said her mom's doing mine Well... are you an illusion Or am I just getting stoned Beacause I can't take it alone I can't take it alone I hope I didn't just give away the ending We started limping Caught the handicap shuttle to town And yelled "god's healed us" As we ran off the bus the driver just frowned By the way this girl was sexy and she wouldn't touch you This may not be true But I said it so you'd feel involved with this song Are you an illusion Or am I just getting stoned Because I can't take it alone I can't take it alone I hope I didn't just give away the ending We caught a fey taxi driver I smiled the ride was free I felt like amsterdam She wanted more drugs and maybe me I told her dealer I was broke He hired a cameraman We did a porno film for coke I hear I'm big in japan Are you an illusion Or am I just getting stoned Because I can't take it alone I can't take it alone I hope I didn't just give away the ending We went back to her kitchen Put the coke all in a can Tied up a t.v. minister In walked her dad He started drinking coffee Too much sugar on the go He fell dead on the floor He thought the coke was sweet'n low Well are you an illusion Or am I just getting stoned Boy was she upset but then she tstole her dad's wallet and I drove him to the hospital To sell all of his donatable body parts And this is when she dies They brought a depressed junkie in She shot his Cyanide up I guess she thought it was errol flynn I'm blamed in the confusion The police being phoned I don't even love yu We weren't even friends It's just that I can't take it alone I can't take it alone Uh huh I can't take it alone I hope I didn't just give away the ending I hope I didn't just give away the ending I hope I didn't just give away the ending I hope I didn't just give away the ending I hope I didn't just give away the ending I hope I didn't just give away the ending Aw Jesus, ah shit I think I just gave away the ending