As I fall deeper into a manic state I'm a prime canidate for the gene to recieve the drug addict traits Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate I seem to gravitate to the bottle of night quil then I salivate Start off with the night quil like I think I'll just have a taste Couple sips of that then I gradually graduate Too a harder perscription drug called valium like ya that's great I go to take just one and I end up like having eight Now I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak And you'd think with all I have at stake Look at my daughters face... Mommy somethings is wrong with dad I think He's acting weird again he's really begining to scare me Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me And all he does is eat dorritos and cheetos And he just fell asleep in his car eating three musketeers in the rear seat ^Hook: Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know, feels like I been down this road before, So lonely and cold, It's like something takes over me, Soon as I go home and close the door, Kinda feels like deja vu, I wanna get away from this place I do, But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don't And why I just don't know... ^{Verse 2:} Maybe just a nice cold brew what's a beer That's the devil in my ear I been sober a f*kin year And that f**ker still talks to me he is all I can f**kin hear Marshall come on we'll watch the game it's the cowboys and buccaneers And maybe if I just drink half I'll be halfed buzzed for half of the time Who's that mastermind behind that little line With that kind of rational man I got half a mind Too have another half of glass of wine sound acinine Ya I know But I never had no problem with alcohol Ouch look out for the wall aim for the couch I'm about to fall I missed the couch and down I go looking like a bouncing ball Shit must have knocked me out cause I ain't feel the ground at all Wow what the f**k happend last night where am I Man f**k am I hungover and god damn I got a head ache Shit half a vicodin why can't I? " All systems ready for take off please stand by " ^Hook: Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know, feels like I been down this road before, So lonely and cold, It's like something takes over me, Soon as I go home and close the door, Kinda feels like deja vu, I wanna get away from this place I do, But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don't And why I just don't know... ^{Verse 3:} So I take a vicodin splash it hits my stomach and ahh A couple weeks go by it ain't even like I'm getting high Now I need it just not to feel sick ya I'm getting by Wouldn't even be taking this shit if deshaun didn't die Oh ya there's an excuse you lose proof so you use There's new rules it's cool if it's helpin you to get through It's twelve noon ain't no harm in self inducing a snooze What else is new f**k it what would elvis do in your shoes Now here I am 3 months later full blown relapse Just get high untill the kids get home from school, homes, relax And since I'm convinced that I'm in-somniac I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take 3 naps Just to be able to function throughout the day let's see That's an ambian each nap how many valium 3 And that will average out to about one good hours sleep Ok so now you see the reason how come he Has taken 4 years just too put out an album b See me and you we almost had the same outcome he Cause that christmas you know the nomonia thing It was bolognya was it the methadone ya think Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos Your vcr tape cases with you ambian cr great places to hide ain't it So you can lie to hailie I'm going beddy bye whitney baby good night elaina Go in the room and shut the bedroom door and wake up in ambulance They said they found me on the bathroom floor ^Hook: Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know, feels like I been down this road before, So lonely and cold, It's like something takes over me, Soon as I go home and close the door, Kinda feels like deja vu, I wanna get away from this place I do, But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don't And why I just don't know...